I'm into self inflicted suffering as well and have pretty much identical talents and likes. Reading, writing, talking to people, being friendly, teaching and playing with children, playing music, being free. Langston Hughes said he only wrote good poetry when he was miserable. I won't worry about you, but you will be crossing my mind several times a day for several years. Nothing I can do about it. It will taper off with time.
Cordelia found a conch in a dried up creek bed and wants to make a horn out of it.
As a substitute teacher, I continue to observe differences in people. I see hundreds of children of all ages. I can confidently say not all men are created equal. We can be born with equal rights, and we are born in the same manner, but the differences in spirit, intellect, athletic ability, and determination are widely varying from person to person. I have seen little Napoleons in the 2nd grade. I have seen future presidents in 3rd. I have also seen kids doomed to a life of failure and suffering. So dumb and raised by idiot scumbags.
Sorry if that offends, but I can show you where they live and you can decide if it is accurate. The special ones stand out as leaders from a wee age. What I see in you is not common. Recognize your exceptional abilities and develop them.
I'm telling you, though, that girl is bad, bad news. So bad. So so bad. If you feel you love her, I warn you now that your subconscious is looking to teach you some painful lessons. They will distract you from your life's purpose and take away from what you have to give humanity.
In any sort of light, one should always be happy alone. For this reason, I don't mind taking on someone else, because I'll be happy with myself regardless. A wise fool knows he's a fool. I appreciate your good energy and thoughts, but isn't you caring about me the same as me caring about her. Everyone deserves a chance to prove themselves, and I'm not one to write someone off for their past mistakes. Hell, I've made too many myself. My passion for helping those in need is far to great to keep hidden inside, so I'd be hurting more if I kept it bottled up. It's better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all.
ReplyDeleteI believe there are different variations of intelligences, skills, and talents, but I will not categorize people (and definitely not children) as trash or treasure. I believe everyone has the capacity for good and the will to change. I will hone my abilities to bring that out in others even if it kills me, because as you believe in me, I believe in the world. If I get hurt, I'll only be getting better after.
Let me know if you need some help making that shell a trumpet. It really needs to be more than like 6 inches. I'm really happy that I made an impact on Cordelia, and that she's pursuing natural music. Lots o' love!